Månad: december 2016

Like Snow in Sunshine

No snow here – yet. And I am glad for that. I have already had all snow I need in this life. Now I only want sunshine and a blue sky. Not for sunbathing! Just for feeling-so-good. And that awesome feeling with less clothes – I hate winter clothes and I hate putting on and putting on to keep warm! Now I am heading for spring in my mind so I have already bought tickets for Dance festival in February and Spring festival in April.
Anybody wants to join?

spread out
like snow in sunshine
butterfly wings

And that Christmas! I’m not in stress – lucky me – the only stress I feel is that I couldn’t find Jane Reichhold’s translation of Matsuo Basho. They didn’t even know about the book!!!! Have to wait until I am back home – in Scandinavia. No Christmas present to me then. Have to do with goat cheese, kolbasz, seed crackers and red wine …. and of course Carpe Diem. Maybe Carol Oates too 😉

Carpe Diem: Seven Days Before Christmas 2016 #4 first snow.

The Weakest Strength

First I must say – Kristjaan – Host of Carpe Diem – You are fantastic! This journey you bring us on is amazing. Music and poetry goes very well along and you put such an effort in this – I would never have known about so many talanted female composers if not for you. You are my HERO of December – Just saying!!!!!

Now – just at home after visiting an art auction and passing through the greatest Christmas Market in Budapest – …. oh so many new experiences … !!! – I sit down and turn on the music – and the first feeling I get is – this touches my soul!

And in the other end – of cyber – my granddaughter – she just sent a new song -she recorded- to me. She sings and play the guitar and the piano. So lovely!

My senses are overwhelmed – and I love it!

with music
comes the strongest weakness
a spider leg

with music
comes the weakest strength
a spider web

I like when contrasts meet. It’s challenging and exciting. And a great start for ….

Carpe Diem: #1102
Symphony No. 4 Op. 50 by Johanna Senfter.

My Holy Three – x3x3x3

Fortune about substance – Fortune about happiness – Fortune about experiences.
Body – Heart – Soul
Needs – Emotions – Reason (3Brains: Reptile – Limbic system – Neocortex)

What’s directing in different situations?

That’s an important question to reflect about. I think people are far too much focused on tw0 and not the third.

The pedophile – by needs and body pleasure – reptile brain.
The terrorist – by emotions –
The atheist – by reason –

Why do more and more people get immensely fat? – And the TV love to make programs about it! Why?

Why do people turn to extreme collectors and why do people buy all kinds of things they don’t really need? – And TV love to make programs about it! Why?

Why isn’t reason ruling our lives? Is it to blame somebody else?

Well I cannot change the world – I can try … but ….!

My life is in my hands – or correctly – my way of living my life is in my hands. So if I value myself I just have to take care of myself. I ought to find out what is important in life. Not just to me! Not just for me! What’s most important in life! One must find out for oneself. And at the same time – hopefully – be a resource for others.

How should I live my life so I can be proud of myself, stay healthy and enjoy every day as much as possible.

I think I am rather good att living my life. I don’t need a lot of things and clothes but I need my Canon, Mac, iPad and iPhone 😉
I have been a hard working woman all my life and now I enjoy after_work 😉
Since I love to watch phenomena in everyday life, people and their behavior …. and since I love all kinds of performing arts, music and culture …. Budapest is the right place for me. In Sweden I could neither have the possibility nor afford because of distance and costs. My program 2016 and now started up 2017.

And I can choose when I want to be in the crowd and when I want to be in my own space.

Now before Christmas there are more than 1 million turists in Budapest. Safe and sound – so far!

Daily Prompt: Fortune.

Faltering Steps

Trying to catch that special mood …

in the moonlight
with cane and faltering steps
cherry blossoms

… for writing poetry …

wondering
around in my own steps
or somebody else’s

… while listening to music …

sårade hjärtan
och flydda själar
byter plats

hurt hearts
and away fled souls
change places

… lots of lost hearts and lost souls in our world … to many indeed …
… with a war going on … mothers, fathers and children are losing their homes and many – far too many – their lives …

neither hurt hearts
should walk soldiers shoes
nor away fled souls
or soldiers
some tomorrow

Now I just have to choose one of the most beautiful songs about – NOT WAR.
Lars Winnerbäck sang when Dalai Lama visited Sweden 2011 and His Holiness personally thanked LW.

I will work more with the translation in English because it’s much more poetic in Swedish. But hopefully it gives an idea about the content.

Ingen Soldat av Lars Winnerbäck 2009
Lyrics;

Himlen faller ner,
det svider till där kniven skar,
jag har varit vaken hela natten,
känt om hjärtat sitter kvar,
känt om hjärtat sitter kvar.Jag har litat på imorgon
som en troende tror.
Jag skulle gjort så annorlunda
om jag gick i andra skor,
om jag gick i andra skor.

Jag är ingen soldat,
jag har inga vapen att ta till,
inga korståg jag vill gå,
ställ mig inte i ett led,
du får mig aldrig att stå still,
jag fungerar inte då,
jag är ingen soldat,
jag tänker inte så.

Jag har härjat krig i huset,
jag har härjat krig i mig,
mina ögonlock är tunga nu
snart drömmer jag om dig,
snart drömmer jag om dig.

Jag har aldrig stått vid fronten
eller försvarat det jag har.
Men i skärvorna och flagorna
ligger ändå allting kvar,
ligger allting ändå kvar

jag är ingen soldat,
har inga vapen att ta till,
inga korståg jag vill gå,
ställ mig inte i ett led,
du får mig aldrig att stå still,
jag fungerar inte då,
jag är ingen soldat,
jag tänker inte så.

I rispan från min vrede,
ska jag sätta jord och så,
i skuggan av din stolthet
ska jag resa mig och gå.

Jag är ingen soldat,
jag har inga vapen att ta till,
inga korståg jag vill gå,
ställ mig inte i ett led,
du får mig aldrig att stå still,
jag fungerar inte då.

jag är ingen soldat,
jag har inga vapen att ta till,
inga korståg jag vill gå,
ställ mig inte i ett led,
du får mig aldrig att stå still,
jag fungerar inte då,
jag är ingen soldat,
ingen soldat,
jag tänker inte så

Ingen Soldat av Lars Winnerbäck 2009
Lyrics;

The sky is falling down,
it hurts where the knife cuts,
I’ve been awake all night,
Felt wether my heart’s still there,
felt if the heart remains.I have trusted in tomorrow
as a believer believes.
I would have done so different
I was walking in other shoes,
I was walking in other shoes.

I’m not a soldier,
I have no weapons to take,
no crusade, I want to go,
set me not in a line,
you get me never to stand still,
I do not work like that,
I’m not a soldier,
I dont think that way.

I have ravaged war in the house,
I have ravaged war in me,
My eyelids are heavy now
Soon I will dream about you,
Soon I will dream about you.

I have never been at the front
or defended what I have.
But in shards and flakes
Everything is still left,
everything is still there

I’m not a soldier,
have no weapons to take,
no crusade, I want to go,
set me not in a line,
you get me never to stand still,
I do not function that way,
I’m not a soldier,
I don’t think like that.

In the scratch of my wrath,
I will put soil and plant,
in the shadow of your pride
I will get up and go.

I’m not a soldier,
I have no weapons to take,
no crusade, I want to go,
set me not in a line,
you get me never to stand still,
I do not work like that.

I’m not a soldier,
I have no weapons to take,
no crusade, I want to go,
set me not in a line,
you get me never to stand still,
I do not function then,
I’m not a soldier,
no soldier,
I don’t think that way.

Skrivpuff: Ärligt talat.

Skyller på julen att det blir lite märkliga inlägg – ärligt talat 😉

Viktoria Halleluja

In Budapest there are always a lot of culture events and performances going on. Both with famous artists and artists to be. In city center there is ”The Glass House” where not so famous artists take the scene and perform. I often go there. Some days ago it was time for children and I recorded. Viktoria sang Halleluja so beautifully – I think.

children’s voices
tend to fill the christmas air
with carols

Carpe Diem: Seven Days Before Christmas 2016
#3 Christmas Carols.

MayDay

Sometimes you feel a lot when listening to music. Like it grabs you and that’s awesome. Sometimes it doesn’t say anything particular. Or maybe you are in a kind of mood not right for that music. I think the later works for me just now. I just don’t get inspired of Emelie Mayer’s Symphony. My wings are as broken and I cannot fly high enough to create a beautiful poem.

drilling flute
night fly’s wings beat
mayday

Carpe Diem: #1101.
Emilie Mayer’s Symphony No. 4 in B minor.

Habanera for Pinch & Bath

Today I had a lot of errands to do. Most important was goat cheese. On the way to the cheese market I slipped into some shops and found – not a dress – but a jumper full of glittering paljettes. This will do very well, I thought, since dresses are so hard to find. After the goat cheese I found some fresh salmon. Also perfect – Omega 3 you know! I like salmon a lot but don’t forget it in the oven!!!! The oven baked is the best I think. Then a refill for my seed supply – sunflower seeds, pumpkin seeds and sesame seeds.
-Well done Birgitta. Now you earn a (Christmas) Present. Off I went to the bookstore.

And what to say!!!! They didn’t know about haiku! They didn’t know about Matsuo Basho!!!! In the largest bookstore in Budapest. No present to me this day. Life sucks!! But not for long. Last one – a favorite – take away – crème brulée – to keep me going tonight.

Home sweet home and time for a well deserved hot bath and relax. Listening to my music.
Sorry I don’t know which was the first but when I was all covered with the hottest water and feeling the heavenly relaxation Chris Norman sang ”Lay back in the arms of someone” and I did. Feeling wonderful. Swaying my body. Good for the muscles.
Now I’m ready! And ….

Wow – Habanera – and of course I think about Maya seducing the soldier ha ha. Some special muscles will have to work now.

pinches ‘n hugs
in step not for eyes – only
imagine

Oh I love love love! This scene. Maya is so ”just one” with the music. Love love love! Now I am exhausted – no just kidding – ….
Funny though with Zorba’s dance again today when I finally got up.

Daily Prompt: Relax.

Seducing Wine

Jag började söka på Internet. Ville få information om en av de största inom haiku. Vill andas in hans själ. Genom poesin. Vill ju bli bättre på denna speciella japanska versformen. Jag tror jag gör ett besök i bokhandeln i morgon. Efter att jag handlat getost – som snabbt tar slut – där borta i bästa saluhallen. Hembakade frökex och god getost – ah – det är bara så – himmelskt gott! Tar med Carol Oates bok i väskan också eftersom jag ska till bokhandeln. Där på andra våningen finns världens vackraste bokcafé. Kanske kommer jag en bit till i boken som aldrig tycks komma förbi ”inledningen”. Håller fortfarande på att läsa om den mördade dottern/systern ur alla inblandade personernas perspektiv. Har buret med denna boken sedan i somras. Får köpa en stor bit av getosten och en bit av den goda färska. Så jag har till rödbetor. Det ska räcka över hela julen. Ungersk kolbasz har jag redan. Det fick jag en i julklapp. Det kräver … Ett gott rödvin. Tungt som synden. Fylligt som en rundmagad herre i övre medelåldern. Och utsökt som ….. som …. som …. som … mmmm … en kärleksförklaring i nattens yra. Ja det rödvinet ska jag njuta och sannerligen inte spara en droppe till nästa dag. Tror jag köper två flaskor. Eller tre.

vinet förför
med frökex och getost
varje gom

Hoppas de har en bok med poem av Matsu Basho. Då ska jag få den i julklapp.

Skrivpuff: Söka.

Silent Night

darkest sky
surrounding life and death
this night

Carpe Diem: Seven Days Before Christmas 2016
#2 silent night.

Some Wings

the temptation
at the chalk cliff top
I throw a rose

© Hamish Managua Gunn

Basho and I
share the same moon
and the same joy
of words about nature
I know – Basho taught me

© Hamish Managua Gunn

Oh my gosh! This will be too hard! I need that dragon fiery rod now indeed.

in dreams
stars are listening
you know

***

some wings
made a memorable
visit
bringing me to the world of
dragonflies

Well – now you will think I’m even more crazy – cause I feel I have a certain connection to dragonflies. They like me to photo shoot them. They perform for me. They follow me. I talk to them. Last session was when I visited the Tanja in south east Hungary in August. They were so funny! We were in the wine yard as you can see on top.
Left me with hundreds of photos. This one presented me to his/her fellow later.

Click on the picture!