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Passion – The Funny Way

Today – when watching musicians – I thought about passion. Does passion show in every musicians? I wondered about and pictured – like a film playing in mind – a lot of different musicians in different kinds of music. And in my head of course also dancers are moving around while thinking of passion … and music …

like a violin string
played – dancers move
in true passion
capturing the most inner
feelings to express

… I love so much passion … expressed through arts … performing arts … I love it so much it almost hurts … somewhere inside. The true artist … always shows a great power of passion … They become ‘one’ with their instrument … which for a dancer is the body … for the … orchestra conductor also body and his wand.

And I think a dancer with great passion also finds music inside his/her body … and knows how to transform it into dancing …

I get passionate … only by thinking about this passion …

a blue flower
picked the passing wind
playing music

Talking about passion … can also be made the funny way …

Carpe Diem: #1167 The Dancer.

There is ONE thing …

Behind a coward man – there is a stronger woman. Ready to put things right. I think this is rather common in society.
Of course there also is the opposite.

People will never make me lose interest – for humans. And we all share our mother – Earth. There is no life without people. But! Sadly and probably life would be better for Earth without humans.
You know – humans is my favorit subject – has always been. Written a lot about it before.

In my view … every man and woman … every child … boy and girl … are pieces. A lot of pieces! Really a lot.
I just put the pieces together!

piece by piece
put together – makes
the picture of you

That’s my life challenge.
-It was my challenge working with children and youth as teacher. These special children and youngsters demanding so much more …being more vivid … than the mainstream. I loved it! I really loved – working with these growing humans. At the same time I hated the school system – the political side.
-It was my challenge as lecturer as well – working with special teachers to be.
-It is my challenge in life.

I am well trained during life experiences. Also life long education of course. Did never end taking university courses. In the end I choose distant. I rely on … and trust in … my intuition. Don’t know any time it failed. I have lots of doubts on the way … necessary doubts … doubts to be removed … and … reset with facts … until then I go on putting the pieces together … one by one … finally the puzzle is complete … for what’s necessary … at that special time …

Being a behaviorist goes so well with life philosophy … and … along with never ending questions. I am so curious!

I’m so curious
I was about you too – now
I am not any longer
left with a sad taste
doubts became the truth

Reality. Just like … ‘facts rule’ … in life. You are your actions. You … yourself … makes the picture of you.
Realizing. That’s how I work. I am watching the situation … from above … when … at the same time … living it. That’s reality!

I love reality … too … 🙂 … it allows me to imagine …

I love to write my thinking … much better on writing it … than talking it … I think …

… and English is challenging me even more … I like that too …

Ps. I love people. I don’t always like their doings and their behavior. There is one thing I despise …
I really despise cowardliness!

Keys for living Life on Earth.

Carpe Diem Namasté, the Spiritual Way #4
keepers of the earth.

Hot Passion

Some fun ends … and some fun goes on … and most I love … is … the tango… with you … soon to take place again. I love it! Passion and close bodies!
In control!

determined legs
yours – and mine capturing
your insistent moves

You will also give classes this week. So many dancers will be there. Me too – though shooting. Oh how I have looked forward to this. Only once before I have been to the dance studio to shoot photos. Now I will again. Soon!

I like to say to everybody – go and take classes in tango!

like a flower
bursting out promising – spring
for hot passion

And then comes the summer … best of all … best of everything … now ahead … soon …

Waves Unveiled

When the sun is shining … and it is 18°C … and there is an empty bench by the river Danube … and there is a perfect breeze … no body smoking around …

… when there is … like today …

body of roses
thoughts like happy piruetts
life is smiling

… a just so perfect day! Couldn’t be better. Well it could … if you were beside me …

ask me to cruise
all night long – loving
the upward curve

… I felt just crazy … in what was popping up … piruetting in my mind … I smiled … chuckled and giggled … crazy me … and I went on …

Well it would be nice to cruise on the Danube. In a nice room … in a pleasant bed … and with a sea view … of course …

a sip of nectar
a kiss of wild strawberry
my dizzy surrender

… with you … and your desire to … remember? …

waves unveiled
when string of kisses – opens
scent of violin flower

… I remember … clearly … like … a tip of tongue … remember … the taste of nectar.

Time went quickly and I had to get my salmon at the great market before they close. I always plan somewhere in my head so I was close to the tram. Right tram for market.

Went home to secure the salmon in refrigerator and off I went to check the film shooting outside Opera. Than finally a glass of wine in Anna café on Váci. Such a perfect day!

And I got a little sunburn – red I suppose …

Such Pleasure

How nice to read this post by Kristjaan in Carpe Diem. He told about feelings being close to nature. This is immensely important. But I think … not everyone know how to do … or even that it is an option. How sad! What about young people nowadays. Will they find – in their smartphones – what our generation finds in nature? Allow me to doubt!

searching the lost
most important of all – call
for nature

Today I had a day of pleasure. I was really in good mood. Went to the Thermal Bath. No turists only Hungarians …. and me. Not crowdy like in Szechenyi. Outdoors under the sky. 38° Oh how I enjoyed! Floating, swimming, doing some exercises … just for my wellbeing.

And then …. these water jets!!!! My back got a deep make over. Hard and strong – every knot inside disappeared. I shut my eyes. Me and the water in this mesmerizing jet. When I hold out my hands … palms upwards … to catch the yets … I felt as … they played piano with my fingers. Feeling my fingers to be the keys. It was amazing. I let myself be played … for a long time … and where were I with my mind … in that room I like so much.
I noticed people studied me but I didn’t bother. Was I standing out? I wondered.

such pleasure
connection to origin – habitat
water – loving life

These two I wrote after – on my way home – when sitting in the city center park -watching people – resting for a while – with so much peace in mind …

exhausted
after pleasure – living
above all

It took a long time … living … to find this balance … I nowadays feel … for my body … in my soul … in my life.
I think … I have definitely reached the best level … for living my life. I’m so happy and thankful.
And I think I am worth it because I have been working very hard on all levels … in life …. society … at work … … you name it!

Now is *After Work* – and I love it! Seize the day & Be live.

Crazy Art by me - Thinking about All My Rooms in Mind.
… pleasure in life …

Carpe Diem Namasté, the Spiritual Way #4
keepers of the earth.

Full Bodied Souls

”Change rooms in your mind for a day.” by Hafez.

Like an eagle I focused and this was the line I saw … that went straight to my mind. How exciting to change rooms in my mind, I think. And we do all of us nowadays. I sometimes definitely too much! But I can handle it today. Because I have my rooms where the calm, peace and relaxation are balm for my soul.

in the running flood
I find my coconut flake – always
balm for my soul

These rooms I visit frequently. But today I went out exploring. Wanted to find that newly renovated thermal bath. I found it and made an appointment for tomorrow. Then I will explore new rooms in my mind I’m sure.

leaving the safe
entering the far away – to sway
being delighted
in welcoming warm arms
you topped my flight

That unique feeling … between two humans … close and far … different and similar … more that unites than divides … unique in every cell … of feelings … and in each mind.

new planets in mind
serving finest wine – fruity
perfect for full bodied souls

Thinking about wine as love. Sipping it slow and easy. Getting a bit dizzy. Taking off and emptiness filled up with mighty hemispheres.

Now you think I am drinking wine from a wild glass … wrong … only my cup of tea just now … but we’ll never know about …. later … but sooner is nicer …

Cheers … now taking off to a room in my mind …

Thinking about All My Rooms in My Mind.

Carpe Diem: #1166 Night Flower.

Cats 1st March

I’m smiling – thinking of GP to choose ‘cat’ as prompt when March starts. The yelling soon to start too.
Cats are not very common in Budapest – not seen very much. But I have a cat café close. Very nice! Sometimes I need to pat a cat or dog. Miss so much to not have my own nowadays. It’s just impossible the way I live.

cats amusing
dancing around corners
nine lives

I’m sitting and thinking about cats … and at the same time …watching a ballet at classica.de on TV. Beautiful bodies, agile and supple as cats.
How beautiful the natural is!
Also when old I think. How sad when people change their bodies. Really sad.

Once I wanted to change my nose. Thought it was so big. That was as teenager. When a boy liked me – and I didn’t like him – I turned my profile towards him because I thought with such a nose he cannot like me anymore.
With my first salary I planned to have a surgery. Luckily that didn’t happen. I grew into my nose and now I like it.

B_ live

Talking about cats …I’m very specific about the nose … It must be orange framed dark 😉

Jeppe - Best Cat ever!
Me and my Jeppe.

Skrivpuff: Katt.

Rose Spoke Poetry

roses of dreams
not only for buzzing bees
for me too

… popped up in my head on the way between Carpe Diem and B_ live. Now I see how wonderful that sounds. ”Seize the day & Be live”. Well, I was both live and alive in my lively head. No emptiness there.
But however I would very much like to praise emptiness. I find it a strong ‘existence’ – life philosophically. Also like ‘a must’ to reflect about.
I have some favorite words. One is ‘beyond’ and the others sound better in Swedish than in English – sorry for that. I even founded up a new – I think – English word to suit what I wanted to express. Favorit nr one is ‘annorlunda’ and in English it would be different or otherwise but they are absolutely to simple!!!! ‘Differwisely’ would be much better. I love ‘differwisely’ people! Have always done. They are fascinating and exciting. They have great and exciting minds. I get so curious. Watching from a distance or I involve. Depends on …

Why did I end up in my pearly words? …. searching for the thread … ah emptiness … I think ‘differwisely’ people sometimes/often feel emptiness … about the outside world … from the lack of understanding surrounding them. Never inside their minds. Some of them doesn’t bother at all. Some are just lost in our world.

people as poetry
when lines telling the story
about roses and thorns

When living in the Emirates I got to know a lot of people. Some Persian. One was a tennis player and he liked my way of swimming and wanted me to teach him to swim and he offered to teach me tennis. Another one was a film maker. He wanted me to see his film … I was so innocent and a naiv Swedish young woman at that time. I’m glad I got me out from that situation. I’m not stupid thanks … who should I thank when I have no god? My parents and my upbringings of course!

like a film
some in vivid colors – some black
with no roses

At that time I hadn’t discovered poetry.
Ha ha … now I remembered the surfer in Abu Dhabi … that was really a funny story … my son had to call for me … I disappeared out in the Arabian Sea … which Persians of course call Persian sea.

gems of sand
singing poetry – in sea
a rose listens

Don’t buy me red roses!
If roses – just
Rose roses.

Abu Dhabi
My son out teaching his dad how to surf.

Daughters in Persian - Arabian Sea
My daughters in Persian Sea.

Carpe Diem: #1165 Roses.

Live and Die

My skin too …miss that hot spring … I would like to sit there with the Master of masters. Talking about experiencing nature – its inner scent. Talking the poetry language.

like the steam
from inner body of earth – onsen
lifts my soul

This is not at all hard to imagine for me. This is something I love to take time for. Both in Hungarian ‘onsen’ and in my bathtub. Probably I will not vist Japan but I probably will visit Iceland where also ‘onsen’ can be find.

mighty nature
mountains and valleys – healthy
liquid for pleasure

In Hungary I have been to many termal bath from Hévíz in the south to Salt Hill in the north. I also have them close here in Budapest.

Salt Hill, Hungary
Salt Hill Eger, Hungary 2010.

dressed by onsen
I’m completely in your care
the touch of you

…. I’m now floating away … this must be heaven … this is how I want to die … dressed in onsen.
But in fact I want to end up in the sea. Hopefully my children will burn me up and then poor me out in a streaming river close to the sea. Then I want them to have a fun party – thinking about how much I enjoyed life.

How odd thinking about death when it’s all about pleasure with onsen. But for me death isn’t odd at all. Of course you must talk about it! It’s natural – or you have to make it natural. My children know – so no problem. I will die some day. No problem!

Until then I’m busy living … very busy! Tonight I’ve had an awesome evening. Premier contemporary dance event. Cannot be better!

Salt Hill, Hungary
Salt Hill, Eger, Hungary 2010.