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BW - St Stephan Cathedral Budapest

A Quiet Watcher

This day – the day before Christmas Eve – we use(d) to call ”Little Christmas Eve”. We tasted the Christmas food. We were allowed to open one present. We had a really cosy evening. That’s how it was. Seems so long ago just now. I  kept this tradition when I had my own family. We even celebrated once in a dry riverbed in the desert in United Arab Emirates. 1983 I think. Now is a different time. ”Yesterday is dead and gone” as Kris Kristoferson sings. My daughters doesn’t eat meat or celebrate Christmas. My son thinks otherwise. More like me.

circumstances
made christmas dead and gone
empty seats

Since I’m not a believer I don’t celebrate Christmas but I like some traditions. Like spending time together with my family. So I miss that now. Very much.

Some day I will bring my grandchildren to experience the Nutcracker in Budapest. Some day!
Today I went to an contemporary dance performance for children. It was just so very great!

air filled
bubbles of children’s emotions
cracking event

I can also go to church at special occasions – just to watch the rituals people are busy with. As behaviorist I’m very interested – all the time – in people’s behavior and everyday life wherever I am. I’m a quiet watcher.

But not ”quiet” about everyday life relating to politics. Consequences of bad politics I want to highlight. Sometimes also the good. I like to compare Sweden and Hungary as I think they are opposites in EU. I find it interesting to follow. Observe.

dedication
children’s welfare and schooling
my life

I think – maybe – it has been a lot about me personally lately. Sometimes it happens. And that’s ok for me – here.

I have had Bach in the background but tonight I’m afraid he didn’t engage me very much.

finally
a red heavy glass of wine
tasting your kiss
full bodied as usual
how lucky I am

Carpe Diem: #1105 Christmas Oratorio:
Cantata #1 BWV 248 – Mov. 1/9 by J.S. Bach.

I think this entry works better with:

Carpe Diem: Seven Days Before Christmas 2016 #7
Twas The Night Before Christmas.

I will make another for Bach 🙂

Crazy Art by me - The Locker

But Not – For Flowers

I just made a picture. Or the Picture wanted to be made by me. So it is! I use to listen when pictures want to be painted. Sometimes with pens, crayons and pencils I – myself – don’t like very much. I listen and do it anyway.

When Picture was made I gave it a name. That I am allowed to do actually. Picture got the name ”Locker”. And for a while – when studying the Picture – I wondered:

-What is it you want to tell me?

Then I said:

-Why are you so right on the point (almost) always!?

open minded
though the locker is closed – but not
for flowers

I saved and went to my emailbox. Now I find that one of my favorit haiku writers had made a beautiful poem about locked. My picture is named ”Locker”.

I think …

-the open window with the flattering curtain – to the right – is the ”open minded”
-the locker keeps ”something very important” safe
-”but not – for flowers” is so enormous interesting so I have to go on thinking about this

What could it mean?

 

Blue Photo - Give me a Chans and I will take it!

Och gilla Läget

Livet bjuder inte bara på en väg – knagglig eller slät – den bjuder på en mångfald. Vissa tvingas du ta andra väljer du själv.

Om jag fick
en chans till
skulle jag inte ta den!

Det är dags
för en annan att fortsätta
den kampen!

Just nu
ger jag mig själv de chanser
jag vill ha.

I en första period får man mycket hjälp i vägvalen. I en annan period är det för många krafter som bestämmer. Till slut lämnas alla val till dig själv.
Då ska du ta chansen!
Och gilla läget 🙂

Skrivpuff: Chans.

“You cannot swim for new horizons until you have courage to lose sight of the shore.”
William Faulkner

Blue Photo - Mattias Church, Budapest

Another Kind of Candle

On my way home today. I walked towards the Cathedral and a poem popped up in my head. (I live just behind the church.)

not so long
way to the other side
of religion

I’m not religious as you know. But when I grew up everybody around me were. As child – visiting the church – I always thought the priests told lies. Couldn’t understand how people could believe what the priests said. I’m interested in facts – not what few people make up in their fantasy and then try to make it true for a mass.
Sure Jesus once lived and he probably had a very good hearted life philosophy.

It also happens with ”facts” in times. Thinking about when the earth was believed to be flat. So I wonder a lot about:

-What do we believe to be very true today – and tomorrow will be proved as wrong and seen as the madness of our time?  Maybe about the climate? Maybe about our planet? Our place in Universe? I would very very much like to know …

free ticket
for a ride in the dark world
to turn on the light
covered waited in endless queue
while the button was set broken

Perhaps that one was too mysterious?

wise people
talking the speech of facts ‘n truth
my candles
as interesting people’s questions
provide  imaginative power and fantasy

“We are all atheists about most of the gods that humanity has ever believed in. Some of us just go one god further.”
― Richard Dawkins

”Religion is regarded by the common people as true, by the wise as false, and by the rulers as useful.” Lucius Annaeus Seneca.

Carpe Diem: Seven Days Before Christmas 2016 #5 candles.

Blue Photo - St Stephan Cathedral, Budapest

The Pink Dragonfly by me

When I meet you

I want to …

hug you

kiss you

sit down and have a chat

giggle when you kiss me

look into your eyes

show the joy in my heart

take a sip from the glass with red wine

chat and giggle

touch you secretly under the table

kiss your hand

thinking about next step

smiling alluringly

twinkling mischievously

… when I meet you!

When will you come?

Lavendel och kålfjäril

Like Snow in Sunshine

No snow here – yet. And I am glad for that. I have already had all snow I need in this life. Now I only want sunshine and a blue sky. Not for sunbathing! Just for feeling-so-good. And that awesome feeling with less clothes – I hate winter clothes and I hate putting on and putting on to keep warm! Now I am heading for spring in my mind so I have already bought tickets for Dance festival in February and Spring festival in April.
Anybody wants to join?

spread out
like snow in sunshine
butterfly wings

And that Christmas! I’m not in stress – lucky me – the only stress I feel is that I couldn’t find Jane Reichhold’s translation of Matsuo Basho. They didn’t even know about the book!!!! Have to wait until I am back home – in Scandinavia. No Christmas present to me then. Have to do with goat cheese, kolbasz, seed crackers and red wine …. and of course Carpe Diem. Maybe Carol Oates too 😉

Carpe Diem: Seven Days Before Christmas 2016 #4 first snow.

Macro Butterfly

Crazy Art by me - Swinging my Life

My Holy Three – x3x3x3
  1. Fortune about substance – Fortune about happiness – Fortune about experiences.
  2. Body – Heart – Soul
  3. Needs – Emotions – Reason (3Brains: Reptile – Limbic system  – Neocortex)

What’s directing in different situations? 

That’s an important question to reflect about. I think people are far too much focused on tw0 and not the third.

The pedophile – by needs and body pleasure – reptile brain.
The terrorist – by emotions –
The atheist – by reason –

Why do more and more people get immensely fat? – And the TV love to make programs about it! Why?

Why do people turn to extreme collectors and why do people buy all kinds of things they don’t really need? – And TV love to make programs about it! Why?

Why isn’t reason ruling our lives? Is it to blame somebody else?

Well I cannot change the world – I can try … but ….!

My life is in my hands – or correctly – my way of living my life is in my hands. So if I value myself I just have to take care of myself. I ought to find out what is important in life. Not just to me! Not just for me! What’s most important in life! One must find out for oneself. And at the same time – hopefully – be a resource for others.

How should I live my life so I can be proud of myself, stay healthy and enjoy every day as much as possible.

I think I am rather good att living my life. I don’t need a lot of things and clothes but I need my Canon, Mac, iPad and iPhone 😉
I have been a hard working woman all my life and now I enjoy after_work 😉
Since I love to watch phenomena in everyday life, people and their behavior …. and since I love all kinds of performing arts, music and culture …. Budapest is the right place for me. In Sweden I could neither have the possibility nor afford because of distance and costs. My program 2016 and now started up 2017.

And I can choose when I want to be in the crowd and when I want to be in my own space.

Now before Christmas there are more than 1 million turists in Budapest. Safe and sound – so far!

Daily Prompt: Fortune.

Street RocksStreet Photography - Face to Face - Did we get a good photo?

Blue Photo - Piano in the Street

Bäst att ta en funderare till

Ja det är något jag gör en hel del. Funderar. Både på mina egna och andras tankar. På hur det står till i världen och om vi just nu är upp och ned i alltet. Alltet det där Universum där utanför, omkring och bortom. Som snurrar och snurrar i en farlig fart.

Man måste lära sig att fundera och tänka var det någon klok som sade. Jag tror det är så. Jag tror det är viktigare att barn växer upp med frågor än med svar. Med problem i stället för lösningar. Naturligtvis måste det vara måtta på problemen – arten av problem. Likaså måste det vara måtta på svaren. Frågorna däremot ska det inte vara någon som helst måtta på. Ju mindre måtta desto bättre.

-Tänk om vi finns – lever – i skiten under en nagel på en jätte!? kunde min farbror säga till mig när jag hälsade på som liten. Min hjärna gick i spinn och tankarna dansade av glädje och spänning. Och vi tänkte tillsammans om detta och en hel massa annat.
-Tänk så opraktiskt att vi ska bära hem en massa vatten! kunde han säga när drickaförrådet fylldes på från lanthandeln. Vatten hade man ju gott om i brunnen utanför. Och jag höll ju med och funderade på hur man skulle kunna lösa den frågan för mänskligheten.

i vattnet
från allt omkring rinner livet
bort

Det där med drickan är delvist löst numera. Det finns ju brustabletter men fortfarande bär man hem läskbackar med vatten samt med en mindre del av annat i.
Dessutom finns det nog lite annat i vattnet i de flesta brunnarna nu för tiden också.

Bäst att ta en funderare till!

Skrivpuff: Fundera.

Min farbror spelar dragspel för mig och min storasyster som hälsade på denna dagen.
Häromdagen skrev jag en hyllning till denna platsen – mitt hjärtas smultronställe – .
Ps. Det är en kattunge jag håller.

Tången -

“I am enough of an artist to draw freely upon my imagination. Imagination is more important than knowledge. Knowledge is limited. Imagination encircles the world.”
Albert Einstein.