… while the days role on and – somewhere there you are – with your enthusiasm for life – you enjoy – you experience – ….
… then suddenly – like a flash from the sky – actually the reality – somewhere – you are hit – very hard – and paralyzing – by a kind of lid – for a while – …
… then you rise and – go on with your life – finding the way back to your enthusiasm – your joy for life – experiencing – …
… with a new needle – like a knit gnawing – somewhere reminding – or telling you – something …
… you don’t want to listen to!
So I don’t!
a solitary leaf
and the blue river of life
flooding
I go on – in my life – I take the hits from all the lids – and I go on with my life.
That’s an important question to reflect about. I think people are far too much focused on tw0 and not the third.
The pedophile – by needs and body pleasure – reptile brain.
The terrorist – by emotions –
The atheist – by reason –
Why do more and more people get immensely fat? – And the TV love to make programs about it! Why?
Why do people turn to extreme collectors and why do people buy all kinds of things they don’t really need? – And TV love to make programs about it! Why?
Why isn’t reason ruling our lives? Is it to blame somebody else?
Well I cannot change the world – I can try … but ….!
My life is in my hands – or correctly – my way of living my life is in my hands. So if I value myself I just have to take care of myself. I ought to find out what is important in life. Not just to me! Not just for me! What’s most important in life! One must find out for oneself. And at the same time – hopefully – be a resource for others.
How should I live my life so I can be proud of myself, stay healthy and enjoy every day as much as possible.
I think I am rather good att living my life. I don’t need a lot of things and clothes but I need my Canon, Mac, iPad and iPhone 😉
I have been a hard working woman all my life and now I enjoy after_work 😉
Since I love to watch phenomena in everyday life, people and their behavior …. and since I love all kinds of performing arts, music and culture …. Budapest is the right place for me. In Sweden I could neither have the possibility nor afford because of distance and costs. My program 2016 and now started up 2017.
And I can choose when I want to be in the crowd and when I want to be in my own space.
Now before Christmas there are more than 1 million turists in Budapest. Safe and sound – so far!
Today I had a lot of errands to do. Most important was goat cheese. On the way to the cheese market I slipped into some shops and found – not a dress – but a jumper full of glittering paljettes. This will do very well, I thought, since dresses are so hard to find. After the goat cheese I found some fresh salmon. Also perfect – Omega 3 you know! I like salmon a lot but don’t forget it in the oven!!!! The oven baked is the best I think. Then a refill for my seed supply – sunflower seeds, pumpkin seeds and sesame seeds.
-Well done Birgitta. Now you earn a (Christmas) Present. Off I went to the bookstore.
And what to say!!!! They didn’t know about haiku! They didn’t know about Matsuo Basho!!!! In the largest bookstore in Budapest. No present to me this day. Life sucks!! But not for long. Last one – a favorite – take away – crème brulée – to keep me going tonight.
Home sweet home and time for a well deserved hot bath and relax. Listening to my music.
Sorry I don’t know which was the first but when I was all covered with the hottest water and feeling the heavenly relaxation Chris Norman sang ”Lay back in the arms of someone” and I did. Feeling wonderful. Swaying my body. Good for the muscles.
Now I’m ready! And ….
Wow – Habanera – and of course I think about Maya seducing the soldier ha ha. Some special muscles will have to work now.
pinches ‘n hugs
in step not for eyes – only
imagine
Oh I love love love! This scene. Maya is so ”just one” with the music. Love love love! Now I am exhausted – no just kidding – ….
Funny though with Zorba’s dance again today when I finally got up.
Well well well – There is fishing and there is fishing!
As having great interest in people and their behaviour I will choose to focus on ”catfishing” – fishing on Internet. It’s such a fraudulent activity.
Often young far eastern men targeting women. Often the lonely ones – the vulnerable. I sometimes get questions about friendship on Facebook. Very odd ones. Luckily I’m not vulnerable or weak, maybe lonely sometimes. When it happens I get militant and combative – I take a fight for a better world – even on Internet. I also have warned some women. And they were thankful.
Like when working against mobbing – I aim to show the bad behaviour – yes make it real – describe – show in pictures – a clear picture about the phenomenon.
So I made a webpage and I made a Facebook page. Sometimes it’s so stupid!
”Pierre Oblin” a general in US army – What general will make a Facebook page like this? And why contact me!? Isn’t it stupid! So insane! I would like very much to hang out the ”figure” behind this.
No crazy thoughts popping up today on my walkabout over and between the bridges. I was too busy with testing camera settings in this half misty day. Soon I will look at my photos but first that only poem coming in my head when I was almost at home. I think it is a little folly …. or?
Well well well … this is really something to be a bit sharper on … I think … Hopefully I can think in ”My Threes” in this one too. Mostly I think in three – the holy number (to me). Not at all religious!!!!!
1st – The largest question – conundrum – is to find that very very simple answer to how the very very complex Universe happens. Why choose ‘happens’? Because I reject the more specific and find a simple word best here.
And I’m sure the answer is simple because the subject is so complex.
2nd – The funny question – conundrum – is for example joking about dear neighbors. Swedish people do that a lot about Norwegian people. I think Finnish people do that about Swedish people. Ha ha!
3rd – The wise words – conundrum – Words that make you reflect about yourself, other people and our behaviour in the world. We all have our favorites don’t we!? I too and here are a few.
”In its basic sense, trust is essential to every conversation. In conversation as such we deliver ourselves over into the hands of another we are ‘in the power of’ the other’s words and conduct.” Knud Løgstrup (Dk)
”Religion is regarded by the common people as true, by the wise as false, and by the rulers as useful.” Lucius Annaeus Seneca
”To write is to regain your balance” – Patrick Modiano, Nobel Prize in Literature 2014.
”Great minds discuss ideas; Average minds discuss events; Small minds discuss people” –
Eleanor Roosevelt
“Between stimulus and response, there is a space. In that space is our power to choose our response. In our response lies our growth and our freedom.”
― Viktor E. Frankl –
I wrote this 2011-01-16 in another blog for a challenge about house. The challenge was to write about a house of pleasure … perhaps desire or yen would be better to use … I don’t know. But I know all three can be used and together about the house I choose. Bespoke.
Ett hus med mycket lust för mig är detta huset. Väldigt mycket lust! Jag älskade att vara på “Tången” som jag kallade det fast det egentligen heter GRÄVLINGTÅNGE. Så länge jag kan minnas var jag hos min faster och farbror så fort jag kunde. Från innan jag börjar skolan och sedan alla skollov.
Egentligen är detta huset skomakarbostället till en stor skogsgård men mangårdsbyggnaden finns inte kvar. Min farbror skötte skogen med mycket stor omsorg och jag har både kvistat och barkat stockar.
1750 – Hemmansägare och nämndeman Gumme Persson ägde gården. Han kallades också för Gumme Gräfling. Nu vet jag att Gumme Persson är farmors morfars mormors far. Jag släktforskar ju.
Här sitter jag Sickan (riesenschnauzer), min faster och farbror i “Lövsalen” och fikar. Jag tror jag är 9-10 år.
Här sitter jag på stenmuren i min egen “lekstuga” med riktiga pinaler. Sickan vaktar förstås. Denna bilden finns med i en bok om lekstugor. Det var nämligen så att den författaren hittade min bild på Internet och ville ha den med i sin bok om lekstugor. Jag kan berätta att min lekstuga är den enklaste av alla i boken men för mig den mysigaste.
Nu syns det inte riktigt på denna bilden men min faster var blomtokig och tog skott överallt och planterade nedanför huset.
Här spelar min farbror dragspel efter dagens skogsarbete. Jag håller en kattunge i famnen – kanske är det min Jeppe. Min storasyster var på besök denna dag och Sickan är också med. Jag har alltid älskat djur. Hemma i Växjö fick jag inte ha djur men på Tången fanns häst, kor kalvar, får, lamm, höns, katter och Sickan samt sköldpaddan Lukas.
Det finns inget ställe i världen som fyller mig med sådan lust och värme – kärlek – som Tången. Det är det självklara lusthuset för mig.
Min farbror Henning var pappas närmast äldre bror bland sju bröder. Henning och Annalisa fick inga egna barn men för mig var de lika kära som mina biologiska föräldrar. Jag är mycket präglad av min tid på Tången.
Min faster och farbror sålde sin skogsgård när de blev äldre. En av de angränsande lantgårdarna köpte upp den. Där bodde min bästa kompis från den tiden. Nu är det hennes yngre syster som äger gården – tillika mamma till en mycket känd och duktig sångerska – Charlotte Perelli. Jag vet att Charlotte berättade om Grävlingetånge när hon var sommarvärd i radio. (Winner of European Music Contest 1999).
Nu är själva huset dock avstyckat från skogsfastigheten och fick nya ägare från Malmö som hittade mina skriverier om Grävlingetånge på Internet och bjöd mig att besöka dem när jag var i trakten. Grävlingetånge finns i Linneryds socken numera Tingsryds kommun i Småland, Värend, Kronobergs län. Mina rötter kan jag följa bakåt till 1600-talet.
Denna bilden på skogen har jag tagit för några år sedan när vi körde igenom den.
Jag är glad för att jag fick tillfälle att skriva denna hyllning och kärleksförklaring.
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